I AM AWARE
So, shall we get to know each other a little better? Create a space, so the sharing can arise from a place of comfort, safety, familiarity. A little humility perhaps.
I feel it’s a good idea.
I drew a book
I didn’t really mean to. It kind of just happened.
That’s how life becomes, when one is no thing and all things. It was kind of about me, but also not.
It was a process of reconciliation of a journey that never really happened, but one that had to happen for the book to be written.
It’s a book about awakening creativity and spirituality. About being awake in love and life and heartbreak and healing. It’s a drawing of life. About art, Buddhism, The Tao, Hinduism, Psychology, Rumi, letting go and nothing all at once. I call it yoga art. awakening creativity
It’s really a pastiche of wisdom that grapples with the suffering and joys of authenticity and awakening to one’s true self in contemporary life and the yoga path. Giving life to the surrendering and truth, irrevocable on the path; it is a candid yet compassionate insight into modern art and spirituality through a spontaneous creative process. The awareness of life.
So I’ll share it with you here, because I want us to be clear, to be OK with each other, Safe. And if I show you mine you might show me yrs :).
I struggled with a couple of issues writing this book.
Firstly, I had a difficult time reconciling the idea of such a personal interpretation of my journey. Is it in alignment with spiritual teachings? Is that the right message? Is it too ego oriented? Will that be helpful or a hindrance?
In contemporary spiritual circles there is a commentary on Advaita, or nondualism; which tackles the concepts of a personal self. It is mostly a philosophical or intellectual debate about oneness and separation.
Some teachings and teachers believe that if we have a sense of self we can not be liberated.
Although, I don’t claim to be liberated, I have experienced times of the dissolving of the self and have found this integral to my coming into my authentic self, my true nature, I have paradoxically also had to go into myself, my sense of identity and body and conditioned mind to arrive there.
The awakening experience for me has not been an end to self, although this may seem true at times, but a coming into truth of self, a greater self than what was known prior to any awakening event.
I find it important to show all facets of the mind through awakening and the only person I am able to do this so sincerely with is myself. So I let go of that struggle.
Secondly, my ego mind struggled with the structure of the book. It wanted things to be in sequence, in a certain order.
Yet, the truth is, things were not in order, in logical sequence. Art is a creative process, outside time.
It was important to me that my spirit was the main director of this book and it kept directing back to the truth. To record things in order as they happened, not as a contained categorical logic that would please my conditioned mind.
It was a continual process of letting go. Yet, it was wonderful to allow this freedom and to see it’s natural flow.
I hope you find it equally enjoyable and liberating.
The Transcending Woman After Raphael
Oil pencil on print paper
This day I was finding my mind difficult. My heart was aching. I wanted things to be different. I knew I had
to let go. I had to go in, deep within, and find where the resistance and pain was abiding.
After two hours of contemplative meditation, in which I was guided to express my experience,
I drew the transcending woman and I felt release. I transcended the suffering, I began to accept the loss.
I have used the reference of “Head of a muse” by Raffaello Sanzio (Raphael) .
Raphael was an Italian born painter (1483-1520).“Head of a Muse” is a practice drawing by Raphael, used as
a study for one of his frescoes in the Vatican which was commissioned by Pope Julius II.
The innocence and awe in her face resonated with my experience.
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