If you are not experiencing neurosis on some level, you can’t possibly be experiencing oneness.
You may be hanging out on a plane of pure consciousness, in an ocean without its fish.
A little like planet Earth at the moment.
You’ve missed the boat, as it were. Not fully anchored in reality.
You have obviously bypassed the mass consciousness, (that in my observation) is currently the all pervading sea of neurosis,; our postmodern crisis.
You are seeing the Guru.. oops I mean the moon and forgotten the finger that points to it.
How can you point to the moon without the finger?
A master of consciousness may be omniscient, omnipresent and although they may be residing in a state of pure awareness or consciousness itself, then its only a matter of time before they come into contact with this neurosis that the rest of the world is apparently swimming in.
Let’s Take Amma for instance, the hugging saint.
She cries with people’s pain, laughs with people’s blissful hearts
She is a human Being
You can see/ hear about this in this great interview from BATGAP
If there is no cup how can it poureth over
If there is no heart how can the poet love and leaf you
And as the dawn
Into the play
The fading of the sun
Into the illumination
of the moon
So to the leaves
Come and go
Merging back into
To have come
Akin to our hearts
There is no dance without Shakti
Shiva (awareness/pure consciousness) cannot dance without Shakti (energy).
The Goddess wants to dance
The sounds of the universe wanted to manifest.
Sarasvati wanted to inspire
even the Rishis knew this
Language wanted to form
Consciousness is force
Space/Void Fire Air Water Earth
There are many perspectives, many languages, many truths, many half truths
Sorry I got a little carried away in my imagination
so where was I..
Oh that’s right I said something like oneness includes neurosis – the collective consciousness. Why did I say that?
Because, if you are one with all, you would be feeling the neurosis that is all pervading the consciousness that is prevalent in the world psyche.
It’s called spiritual bypassing.
It’s called avoidance in basic psychology.
So who do think you are? you may say.
I’m a nobody
with a body
In good form
I was a spiritual bypasser
Some years back (maybe 9 or 10), I had an experience in my kitchen whilst cooking dinner for my child.
I had been meditating religiously, well actually non religiously, (there’s that perspective problem again), after a spiritual awakening or mystical experience (5 years previously).
I was experiencing many psychological shifts and was beginning to understand more about myself, as I had been in witnessing state for many years.
I was ignorant to enlightenment, yoga and had little knowledge other than my experiences. The only reference point I had was my spiritual/mystical experiences as a child, which I had long deserted.
Things were a little tuff, I was a single parent, working full time, studying and didn’t have a lot of support.
Although I was feeling sincere inner peace ( a sweet abiding residue of my original ‘Awakening’), was practicing attachment and mindfulness parenting and enjoyed my life, I was also witnessing an intense psychological stress about the future and the well being of my child.
This stress would present itself as fear, sometimes an overwhelming terror.
This stress had become constant for a number of months, so i stopped studying.
I was meditating 2 hrs a day (and had done so everyday for 5 years) and had begun to go into spontaneous deep contemplation for 4 hours each night after I put my child to bed.
Many realisations had begun to churn in me during this time. Deep realisations about the nature of reality and how my mind was working.
I seemed to be a witness to all this and would watch the streams of consciousness flow into me as I stared upon the stars in the night sky.
Then one night in the kitchen I was making dinner for my child, as she was doing her homework. The stress was building in my mind, as it has been for some time, an undercurrent of the enjoyment we were sharing, as I was helping her with her math.
I felt as though I was going to explode and couldn’t take anymore.
Just as the stress was peaking (i had never experienced it like this before), I said to myself ‘everything is as it should be’ (a mantra I had adopted some years back from a Buddhist article I had read somewhere).
This triggered something profound in me and I felt an energy or a force from these words, I could feel my consciousness shifting.
Then a force of energy went from the center of my mind and permeated my entire body and I felt an intense bliss.
At the same time i felt the vibration of the words (everything is as it should be) permeating every cell of my body (if that makes sense) and it became such a clear reality, a consciousness unto itself. I was that thought.
I then felt a wave of energy move from my lower back up my spine. It was blissful. Fully embodied joy and ecstasy overcame me. It seemed to explode out of my head and then return to fill my entire body.
There were no longer any thoughts. My body felt light, empty. My whole being full of peace, love, bliss.
I looked around the kitchen and there seemed to be no separation between me and the kitchen. I was the stove, the cupboards, the floor; all of it. It was as though we had merged into one. I looked over at my daughter and I saw her thriving and happy with joy and again felt no separation.
All the stress had gone.
This was followed by a spontaneous deep laughter. It was as though I had seen the big joke. Everything, even my stress seemed so funny, so laughable, so unreal.
This lasted for about 2 or 3 years. This feeling of oneness and bliss. No stress at all. It was glorious.
I became a spiritual bypasser
For a long time I felt pure connectedness or a oneness to everyone and everything.
I no longer saw people as their form, I no longer heard their stories, I only saw them as pure spirit, as joy, as bliss.
I mean don’t get me wrong, there were also many other beatific byproducts of this state, such as the illumination of things, all became sweet with light, colours began to appear magnificent (like when one falls in love).
Nature danced with me, as me.
Oh the sweet songs of the trees
conscious you are
Let me dance your song
Oh sweet lover
you can do no wrong
Visions appeared, knowings, sounds of the universe, the nectar of nature threw me into raptures of delight. Tears fell like ninpins, spontaneously, as I saw peoples pain stories and their glories.
Uproarious laughter filled my heart and mind. Sometimes appropriately, often inappropriately.
I would say terrible things in crisis like ‘its all an illusion, you are not that.”
I thought I knew the way. I thought I was the gift of the matriarch. I thought I was helping.
Then one day it all came flooding back, all the subconscious muck that I had ignored, all the problems of the world came flooding into my consciousness..
I went into the darkness. I was a fallen angel.
I began the process of emptying my cup
In my oneness experience of 3 years, i didn’t feel any suffering and it was wonderful and although I felt connected or as everything, I’m not sure that was the whole picture. I mean the neurosis of the world that returned certainly had to be dealt with :).
I had to deal with my karma.
Take full responsibility for my life
Become intimate with my shadow
with deep compassion
and grow up
Here is a talk on spiritual bypassing by a very direct and joyful Indian teacher of the yogic path